In my inmost self…
(Romans 7:22)
“My inmost self”? I wonder where that is? How does one
journey to their “inmost self”? And, what do we find when we get there? “I
find,” writes the Apostle Paul, who dares to take the journey, “that when I
want to do what is good, evil lies close at hand. For I delight in the law of
God in my inmost self; but
sin, seizing the opportunity afforded by the commandment, produced in me every
kind of coveting… making me captive to the law of sin.” The tenth
commandment does him in: “I
would not have known what it is to covet if the law had not said, ‘You shall
not covet.’ But sin, seizing an opportunity in the commandment, produced in
me all kinds of covetousness.”
“All
kinds of covetousness”—the tenth commandment does go on and on: "You shall
not covet your neighbor's house; you shall not covet your neighbor's wife, or his
manservant, or his maidservant, or his ox, or his ass, or anything that is your
neighbor's." Paul does seem to resent, for example, how Peter got to
travel about with his wife (1Cor 9). Is
that coveting? Maybe so.
The
point being, that however deep we go into our inmost self; we find conflict, disappointment,
and condemnation. We fall short—even the Apostle. We find ourselves “condemned”.
That’s why we need Pentecost: “There is therefore now no condemnation for those
who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has
set you free from the law of sin and of death” (Ro 8).
The
law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has set us free for one another and
even for our “inmost self”.